It's a struggle, but....

This past Saturday July 10, I did my longest distance yet....6 miles! Woohoo...never thought I would say I did that. I was pumped after that. I went home and literally did yard work all day and was happy with what I accomplished on Saturday. So yesterday I was excited to do our drills with the group. We meet on Wednesday nights to do more training exercises and then on Saturday mornings is our distance runs/walks. Well, I was pumped because of what I accomplished Saturday and still had energy afterwards and then we started to do our exercise and I was DIEING. It was so hard. I ended up having to walk back to our "meeting area" a little bit earlier than everyone else. My legs were killing me and I just wasn't feeling good. I actually got in my car, called my husband and cried. I guess I was overwhelmed with the pain, my lack of endurance and the fact that I still after 10 weeks, can't keep up with everyone. I have come to the realization that this is my very first time at ALL OF THIS. 1st time to continue a workout for 10 weeks; 1st time to commit to a half marathon; 1st time to train with a large group of people, etc. So alot of firsts for me. At the same time, I am trying to lose weight. With all that being said, I'm vowing to myself that I am proud of myself just for DOING THIS. I am accomplishing alot FOR MYSELF. Just cause I can't keep up with everyone, doesn't mean I am failing! I AM SUCCEEDING!!! So now I'm pumped again and will make another record for myself this coming Saturday July 17. I will do 7 miles. Woohoo! lol

On a good note, I have had a few compliments from others saying they can tell I've lost weight. I see it in my face a little when I'm comparing to older photos, but I am no where near my goal weight. At this time, I'm still not ready to tell everyone my biggest point and what my goal is, but when I reach my goal or get closer to it...I will shout it from the roof tops what I was at my biggest because that will be my biggest accomplishment yet is to have lost all of this weight. I do feel my skirts, pants, etc. loosening up a little...not drastically but a little. LOL Below are 2 pictures after 10 weeks of training. Hopefully next pictures I post...I will be lots smaller! My coworker MADE me take my sweater off. lol I'm pretty self conscious about my arms, but I did it because she said it looked good.

To date, I have raised about $1,800. I still have $1,700 to go. Half way there!!! But the only way I'll be able to do it...is through the support of my family and friends. I realize that times are tough and not everyone has extra money just lying around. I get that...I am struggling too. But anytime someone is raising money or starting a ministry or raising money for their kids fundraisers, I pitch in whether I want to or not...just to show my support. So please think about the times that we've all asked for a little support and have gotten it from others and I just ask that this time, you support me in my endeavor. I don't always do fundraisers and marathons but this is my very first and I really want to meet my goal. I will not be able to attend the marathon if I do not raise a MINIMUM of $3,500.00 total. So that goal is not one that I made higher to help LLS out even more (which I would like to do, but I'm just doing the best I can today). It's hard work to raise money and hard work to train for a marathon that you've never done before. So I ask again, please show your support in me and help me make it through this marathon!

Thank you for reading my post. I know that not everyone is interested, but those who did and took their time out too...hope you enjoyed it!

http://pages.teamintraining.org/txg/nikesf10/bhamilthg9

1st Fundraiser

In order to raise money, you have to be creative and you have to be creative in order to raise money! lol Crystal approached me earlier this year about doing this marathon with her. Of course my first thoughts were "Are you crazy?", but with time and her persistancy, I finally said YES and jumped on the bandwagon. lol I knew that it was going to be some work raising money because the goal is my highest goal ever to raise money, but I didn't realize how MUCH work it would take me into raising this amount. Well, we started talking fundraisers and one of the things we came up with was having an event at Pearl Bar. Crystal had been there before and knew it was a popular place...that it definitely was. OMG...I'm definitely not one for crowds anymore. Anyways, we met with the manager back in May and with much work and going back and forth with them, we got it all set up. So this past Saturday, June 26, we had our first big fundraiser with Pearl Bar. We sold 2 drink tickets for $10 and was lucky enough to have Bud Light and Tito's Vodka donate. There were a few little hiccups along the way, but for the most part, I'm glad we did it. Oh and by the way...if you're looking to raise money, seriously...hitting up the drunks is the way to go! lol J/K But seriously, that's where you'll make some money. This was by far a great learning experience and I couldn't thank the girls that helped us out enough. We recruited 3 girls from our marathon group. They are beautiful and outgoing. They did an awesome job. Without them, I KNOW we wouldn't have made as much. They worked so hard all night long.

Our success made us about $2,100. I have already raised $845 on my own so with my share from this fundraiser, I should have about $$1,445 raised. That leaves me a total of $2,055 to still raise. But I believe that God will give me favor in this situation and it will all come!

Thank you again to all who came out and supported us. Couldn't have made the money without you guys either. Love you all.

There's always someone who is last...

This past Saturday was my very 1st training for the half marathon. I can no longer say "marathon" and keep it short cause I know the lingo now and have to say "half" in front of marathon cause I'm not running 26.whatever miles it is. I'll be running 13.1. STILL ALOT!!! Well, I was pumped for my 1st training...until....we started on the track. I started out running and maybe made it 20 or 30 feet. I felt heavy, like something was holding me down from running. So, I started to walk and walk as fast as I could. One of the coaches said I had great posture and gave me a few more tips for walking so I used them. Everyone started passing me more and more until...I believe I was the last person. I didn't give up on my running. Every few minutes, I'd try and run just a few more feet. My shins and calves hurt so bad :( I've never felt them hurt this bad before. I kept having to stop and stretch them out. I was scared they were going to pull and rip on me...that's at least what they felt like they were going to do. About this point, I finally pass the 1 mile marker. I still had 2 more to go. It was harder than I thought, but I did finish...of course, even though it took me 50 minutes...I finished!!! Didn't have much of a choice though. LOL You know that saying, "There's always someone who's last"...well, I was that person on Saturday. I was hoping that with "training", one of the coaches or my mentor would stick with me to help motivate me, but no one did :( That was a little discouraging, having to go through it alone, but I'm not going to let that bring me down. I will continue to strive and continue to finish. I will finish until the very end...that 13.1 miles across the finish line on Sunday October 17 in San Francisco.

Oh and one of the perks of finishing the race....SAN FRANCISCO FIREMEN HOLDING SILVER TRAYS WITH TIFFANY BLUE BOXES AND TIFFANY NECKLACES INSIDE. Yup...a Tiffany's necklace. For you single women...the firemen may be more appealing to you, but for me...the Tiffany's necklace is. Ok...I'll admit, it's icing to have the firemen there too :) LOL Don't worry, my husband knows. lol So, instead of a medal for finishing, we get to wear a constant reminder of what we accomplished, with a Tiffany inscription on the back :)

And Nick has decided that he will be there in attendance to cheer me on. I'm so happy that I'll have him there to share this moment with me. He'll get the sweatiest biggest hug he's ever gotten in his life when I cross that finish line. LOL I've spoke with my aunt and her and my uncle are going to most likely be there as well, since they live about 30 minutes away. OMG, I'm just too excited right now thinking about this. Just wish my mom could come :(

Right now, the race is just a little glimpse to me and right now, I can't imagine myself doing this but in my heart, I am doing this for someone else. That someone else who is fighting for their life and going through chemo and the emotional and physical pain that it brings on. I hate you cancer and I will work hard to help get rid of you...whatever I can do, I'm going to do!!!

On another note...I can always bring a running buddy with me, so anyone want to join me on Saturday mornings to help me get through this...I'd be more than appreciative :)

But it's so hard....

So last night, I tried to run. Crystal, my marathon buddy (who has always been athletic our whole life, by the way) seems to think I can start running already. I walked at what I thought was a high speed for the first 5 minutes and then I started to run, or shall I say jog. OMG...I was feeling like something was weighing me down and trying to stop me from running. I felt so heavy! I ran for 1 minute and brought the treadmill speed back down. I walked for another 5 minutes and tried once again to run. Again, I could only push myself to 1 minute cause I was hating it at 30 seconds. WHY? Why is it so hard for me? WELL....let this be a lesson to those of you who like to splurge and NOT work out. Please learn from my lesson and don't get as out of shape as I've gotten. In the last 3 years, I have truly let myself go. I obtained a boyfriend, then a fiance and now a husband and was just too comfortable to care about myself. Well, now that I'm starting to care, it's going to be 10 times harder now then when I was 50 pounds lighter. So I encourage all of you to truly care about your body and health...it will make you feel so much better, inside and out.

I will try again tomorrow morning. Crystal says I need to run for 4 minutes and walk for 1. HAHA, only if she knew that it's vice versa. But I'm going to try what Crystal says to try. OR...I'll go to a spin class and that should help me with some major cardio! hehe

My 1st Marathon Event

I previously mentioned that I'm going to be participating in my first half marathon this coming October in San Francisco. Well, we had our first event this past Tuesday evening. It was called Nike Night Out. They served wine and yummy fancy appetizers, gave away swag bags filled with goodies and even gave away 1 free Tiffany bracelet that night. I was just a few people behind the girl who won. Darn my luck...or not so much luck! They spoke about the event and training and fundraising a bit and I found out that not only do I get a training group and training coach, but I also get a mentor. I'm even more excited now! I get that many more people to help push me to complete this goal. Most of you know me and probably know that I don't or haven't met many goals in my lifetime. I obviously have issues with commitment (and I'm not talking about relationships). All of my life, I have started a sport and never finished or followed through. It was just so much easier to give up! Well, I'm not doing that anymore. I made a commitment to myself this year to follow through with events/plans that I make with family and friends and most importantly, to finish this race! I don't want to be the first person across the finish line and don't care if I'm the last either...it's the part where you finish is what means the most to me. I can't wait to start fundraising and look forward to everyone's help throughout this process...so don't be surprised if you get a phone call or letter from me! LOL I also ask for prayers that I stay strong and that I finish this race and that I keep God throughout the middle of it cause without him...I am weak! It really all sat in and became real to me when I made out my 1st check for registration. :) I can't wait to start this process. Saturday May 8 is my very 1st training with a group, so wish me luck.

Oh and a bonus to finish the race....there will be men standing after the finish line with tuxedos on and holding trays full of Tiffany & Co. necklaces that they made for the race. I'm so excited to wear that and wear it proud :) Thank you Tiffany & Co.

**Oh and I'm using the color purple for this post cause that's Team in Trainings color!!!

Painting Adventure

I've never taken up art or painting with different colors, but now that I live in a house, FINALLY...I'm painting. I started just yesterday with Nick's/Guest bathroom. I decided to go a little more modern in there cause I have to think about Nick's masculinity yet still have to be accommodating to guests. I went with GRAY in his bathroom. I know it sounds blah and dull but I got my Aunt Shannon's opinion and I totally trust her judgement. She seemed to love it. Here's a sneak peak of the color. I will post more pics when I'm totally finished.

Walking for Mamaw

Well, I've decided to do something amazing this year. That is to run a marathon. Most of you know, I'm not athletic, a little on the chunky side and have never ran a marathon in my life. A good friend encouraged me to do this and my first thoughts were, "is she crazy and why does she have faith I can do this cause I can't", but she was persistent about it and her faith in me gave myself faith. Selfishly, I'm doing the marathon for myself, but I'm not totally a selfish person so running a marathon and raising money for a charity gets me pumped. I'm so excited I've decided to be apart of this. I'll be running 13.1 miles in October (remind you, I can't even run a full 1 mile yet), in San Francisco for Team in Training. They raise money for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society. I'M GOING TO DO IT :)

Since I've decided to do that marathon, I've been encouraged to do a few more things. My first step to the big marathon will be the Arthritis Walk here in Houston on May 22. My mamaw was diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis years ago (I feel like she's had it as long as I've been alive). So I'm dedicating this walk to her. She lives in pain everyday and has crippled fingers and many more effects from the arthritis. In order to do the walk, we must raise a minimum of $100. I need help doing so and of course...anything raised over that will just tickle my pickle (I just made that up hehe).

Here is the website to my personal webpage for the Arthritis Walk. http://bayareaarthritiswalk.kintera.org/bhamilton I would greatly appreciate any support you can give. And if you can't support monetarily, then join me! Walk with me! It will be fun. Raising money for charities is definitely a heart throbber.